Bailees' Preschool Christmas Program

Bailee had her first Preschool program yesterday, December 13th, 2007. It was so cute! They sang songs and were just a cute little bunch of kiddos!!

Here are a couple photos of the program. Plus-some video clips as well!!

Enjoy!

A new addition to the family...

NO! This is not an announcement, that I WISH it was!!

My brother and his girlfriend, Heather, are starting to talk marriage...AHHHHH!!

I love her sooooo much! She is so sweet!! But, I'm hesitant with Nick getting married!! I mean, he is plenty old enough, and he does need to grow up...it's just weird...

Anyway, I love Nick and Feather...(that's what we call her...hahahaha-thanks to Bailee)

They are the cutest together, and will be a happily married couple!!!

I'm posting a photo of the two Lovebirds!!

My Adorable Daughter! (Part-1)

I just wanted to post some darling photos of Bailee through the years...enjoy!!!

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Wray Family Christmas Party

So, we are spending the weekend in this Cabin in Park City with Eric's family...
This cabin is HUGE!! Approx. 11,000 square feet! It is wonderful! With such spectacular views! It's snowing pretty steadily right now, I'm angry because I forgot my camera...so after dinner I am going to drive down to a Gas Station and buy a disposable...I have to take some pictures of this place! And of Bailee playing with all her cousins.

A really cute video I found today

So, my best friend lives in Missouri...

She is only able to visit *maybe* once a year...(if I'm lucky)...

She came last February and was such a joy to have around! Bailee LOVES dancing with her...as you can tell from my video that I am posting...

Kara is a wonderful dancer...really, really, really, really incredibly good at it....and it was funny to watch her show my daughter how to "whoo-whoo"....with her bottom...

Anyway...watch and...ENJOY the wonderful antics of my best friend...Kara!!

Here I am, blogging!!

Okay, so...I usually just blog on my MySpace, but after talking with my friend Shayla today, I decided to create my own little blog on here.

I am still not working at the moment, but trying to find work. (kind of) I stay home with Bailee, and I love every second of it. We have created this whole new bond. One that I didn't have with her when I was working all the time. It has been so wonderful!!

Eric is working two jobs, mainly because he chooses too. He is saving up so he can finish school. Hopefully, he'll get back to school, and be able to find a better job, that he enjoys.

Bailee just started preschool this past Tuesday. She absolutely LOVES it! I think the main reason she loves it so much is because she gets to spend 2 whole hours with her friend Hailey. It is hard to believe that she will be starting Kindergarten in the fall. Breaks my heart! She is growing up too fast for my liking!

Anyway, we are just busy getting ready for Christmas. We will be spending it in California with my Mom and family. I'm excited. Not so much for the car ride. (We are cramming Eric, Me, Bailee, my brother Nick, and his girlfriend Heather into my Honda Accord)...hopefully we'll be fine...

We got our tree up last weekend, and our cat LOVES to climb it. It's pretty funny. I have taken some pictures, so I will post them and you can see. She's a lovable family pet.

Anyway, so there you have it...for my first post!! Yay for me!!

Daddy and Bailee 'ice-skating'

Sound asleep in the tree

She climbed CLEAR TO THE TOP!

My cutest princess Bailee

Kisses for Tipsie

(???)...seriously...(???)

Seriously

How many years is it going to take to finally acheive what I want more than anyting?? Something I have been trying for OVER TWO YEARS to get...something that others are able to get so easily??!!??!?!?!?!?

I feel like I've been kicked in the stomach. Why? Why? Why? Why?

Why NOT me??

HALLOWEEN COSTUMES over the years.....

I'm very saddened....

Hello-it's Halloween...and I'm so happy to see all these costumes...
Kiddo's look so cute, and so happy, and so...EVERYTHING in their costumes...

The reason I am feeling sad right now is....because....LOOK AT MY DEFAULT PICTURE!!!! Look at my darling daughter!!!! Such a cute little girl all dressed up in her costume!!!

The reason I am sad....is because she is 4 years old now!! FOUR YEARS OLD NOW!!!! She looks so darn adorable!!!! The cutest BLONDE Snow White you've EVER seen!!!!! LOL

The sad and HARD part is....she is FOUR years OLD!!! She went from being 3 months old as a Pumpkin.....to being ONE year old as Minnie Mouse....to being TWO YEARS OLD!!!! as Tinkerbelle....and then- THREE yrs as CINDERELLA...(and what a mighty fine Cinderella she was!!!)....to now...BEING ALL GROWN UP AS A 4 YEAR OLD SNOW WHITE!!!!

She's adorable!!!! You'll all see! lol
I'm just a saddened MOMMY!!!

My little girl has grown up WAY TO MUCH!!!! And WAY TOOOOO FAST!!!

Parties!!!!!!

So....

It is that time of the year....the time where the "Ghosts" and "Goblins" and "Witches" and "Bats" and all that stuf....come out for GHOULS AND HALLOWEEN!!!! And Scary nights!!!!! That time where you find yourself all snuggled up next to someone....while they are "helping you through that frightful 'HAUNTED HOUSE'...or next to someone to stand next to you durring the 'Halloween Party'....but most of all....It is that time of year....

The MOST IMPORTANT time of year....where....one of your closest friends.....(are you ready for this????)....

TURNS ANOTHER YEAR OLDER!!!!

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

That's right..... It is MY...."Jamilyn"....'s....Birthday weekend!!!!!!! Something that is one of the most important....most remembered...at this time of the year....BESIDES Halloween....HA-HA-HA....The greatest moments in TIME!!!

AND THE SCARIEST PART IS.....

ARE YOU READY FOR THIS????

((she is turning......................................

ANOTHER YEAR OLDER!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAA

HHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH

HHAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

No...seriously....Just wish me a damn Happy Birthday....OK??

It's hard enough turning ANOTHER year older.....

ESPECIALLY.....

When it is a QUARTER CENTURY older!!!

25!!!!!!

A huge age to turn!!!

Super Excitement!!!

So, Bailee got her Halloween costume in the mail today! She looks so cute!! She is going to be Snow White!! She is so excited for Halloween!! I can't wait to take her Trick-o-Treating for all her candy!!

The hunt...

...for a new JOB...

It is actually been a pretty productive week, in the "finding a new job" category.

I had interview with Morgan Stanley on Monday...and I have 2 more interviews next week. One with a personal financial advisory firm, and another with Edward Jones-which is looking the most promising.

Yay!! I'm so happy!!

Just thought I'd let you all know how it was going...

OH AND...

I love this weather!! Rainy/cold/gloomy!! Fall is the best, I mean BEST time of the year!!

YAY

Wow!

I posted my resume on Monster.com the other day...I should have done this the first day! I have already gotten 4 emails requesting me to call for an interview. I like having someone search me out, more than me having to search others out.

I actually have an interview with Morgan Stanley on Monday. Hopefully this works out. Me not working doesn't do anything for our bank account! lol We are so broke!! But, on the brightside...I am enjoying every moment home with Bailee.

So, today I had to get a filling...it sucked! But, I did get gas!! So that made my trip a little more..."bearable"...and then I stopped by the eye doctor to pick up my new glasses. They are sooooo CUTE!!! I'm excited! (who's ever excited to wear glasses???) Yep...that would be Jamilyn! Makes a joyful occasion out of something others would find lame! lol

Anyway.......just wanted to let you all know that I am doing WONDERFUL! (despite the bills all piling up!)

XO-Jami

Changes

Alright, I am finally going to post a blog to talk about all the changes that have happened in the past month.

You all know how much I loved my job. How proud I was of myself for the licenses that I studied my ass off to get.

Anyway, I had some issues with being late in August. And I am not joking when two of them were because of flat tires in my car...within a week period. NO JOKE! I have th receipts from Big O Tires for the two times that I took my car in to be fixed. Fluke...total fluke...

Anyway, it was pretty obvious that they were looking to get rid of someone at our office, to make an 'example' of someone. Hell, John even admitted it to my mom after the fact that they were looking to make an example of someone, things had gotten too lax, and that 'proper protacal' wasn't addressed when they let me go.

Needless to say, on September 5th, I arrived THREE MINUTES LATE!! THREE MINUTES LATE!!! And Vera let me go. What a bunch of shit.

So, now...here I am...staying at home with my darling little bee until I find a new job. If we could find a way to make it work, I would choose to stay home with her every day. We have had so much fun doing pre-school, going for walks, baking, and everything else. Who knows, maybe we'll find a way to make it work.

Eric is going to get a second job. Because, we figure it is better for him to find something part or full time instead of me just going to work anywhere to make just enough to pay a sitter. And then when I get a good job, like the one I had before...we will put Bailee back in DayCare.

Anyway, I've been extremely depressed lately, and totally PISSED at the way they handled it. Oh-well...redemption and satisfaction will me mine in the end!!

Random words from Jamilyn

Hi all my wonderful friends!!

I just thought I'd post a little bloggeroo about what has been going on in the life of Jamilyn this summer...thus far!

It has not been near as busy of a summer as last year was. And I hate to admit, but I have been a bit of a 'lazy-bum' this summer...

It has been so FLIPPIN HOT this summer!!!!! And I HATE being HOT! I hate it soooooo much!

Once August hit, I got all happy because it was only a matter of weeks until it would cool down. And last week it was in the low 90's...but then today...BOOM! 100 again!! WTF!! I was wearing a sweater today too!! (I know...my fault...right??)

I am so looking forward to the Fall. Autumn is my favortie time of the year!!! And NO, it isn't just because my birthday falls in the middle of it...although, that is a plus...it is just my FAVE! You get to start pulling out all the sweaters..(even though, Jamilyn likes to wear them year-round...haha)...the leaves start to change colors and fall off the trees...it is the best!!!! Makes me all GIDDY just thinking about it!!!

So, Bailee is in St. George right now. She is staying with Eric's parents until the 18th. I am just now starting to miss her. lol...but only a little bit. Tomorrow it will be much worse...I know! Our sitter was off on vacation for this week, so Eric's parents volunteered to take her for the week. And she seems to be having a blast. Today she said that she doesn't want to come home. :( But I know she'll start missing her mommy soon...At least she BETTER!!! Or else!!! LMAO

I can't believe summer is almost over. Thank goodness! But still, this year has gone by pretty fast! I guess that what the old people always said about getting old was true...Time really does start to fly right by!!

This month is a pretty special one...there are SO MANY babies being born!!! My cousin, Brooke, just had her first baby last Wednesday (the 8th)...and she is a cute little girl. They named her Kaydance Elizabeth. I got the joy of holding her for the first time last Friday. And I can't wait until I can hold her again. If you haven't yet...check out the pictures on my page!!!

Hopefully 2008...will finally bring me another BABY!! DARN IT!!! I thought for sure I would have another one...and possibly be one the way for my 3rd by now!!! GEEZE!!! lol

Well, we are all doing pretty good. Summer is just about over, and we hope to get in a camping and fishing trip with my Dad and Brothers before it turns cold!

I hope each and everyone of you are having a good time this summer, and that you are able to endure this heat!!!

XOXOXOXO...XOXOXOXO

Jamilyn Wray

This is so RIDICULOUS!!

2 Years! 2 YEARS!!

I have been trying to conceive a precious life for TWO YEARS now!! And no luck! I am not even 25 yet! What the heck! I don't understand! Bailee was so easy...an accident even...why now that I ache for one...is it NOT working in my favor?

Everyday I see all these horrifying things on the news about how Mothers KILL their OWN children! This is not fair! Something is not right! There are so many women out there wanting children so bad that the cry themselves to sleep each night...and then these women that KILL their own children are able to get pregnant just by looking at another man!

I am just hurting from it all. It's not fair. Not one little bit!!

My daughter just turned 4. I should be ready to have my third by now!! Not still aching for a second!!!

Maybe it's just not in the stars for me. Maybe I am supposed to only have one child.

All I know is...I am GOING CRAZY WITH THIS!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy BIRSDAY Bailee!! (in 2 hrs)

Happy, Happy, Happy, Happy

"BIRSDAY" to my darling little BEE BUM!!!!

She is going to be 4 years old tomorrow!! (in about 2 hours)

I can't believe my ray of sunshine is that old already!!

(I say 'birsday' because that is how she pronounces Birthday...it's too cute!!)

HAPPY BIRSDAY TO MY GOOEY!!

We all seem to go through a dark point from time to time.  It is human.  It is normal.  It is natural.

Geeze Louise...

If only...there was some easier way to push through the darkness...instead of having to wait it out.  Wait for the light at the end of the tunnel.

I found this on one of my friends pages...and I believe it to be true.  And I am going to start seeing things this way...maybe the dark times won't come as often.  If I learn to just...let it go...

By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let
them walk.

I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving
you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to
you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied
to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest
that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have
continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not
joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part
in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your
story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got
to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the
gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye.
It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God
means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I
don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never
intended for your life, then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and
see your worth.....

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you .

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents .

LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in
Him......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help
themselves.....

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed .........

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself
and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things.

Happy 4th of July!!!

Happy 4th of July!!

I hope you guys all have a safe and Happy Holiday!!

We had the opportunity to celebrate the holiday tonight.  Which was good, because Eric works tomorrow night, and the last thing I want to do is haul Bailee to a firework show, all by my lonesome.  (lol)

No, really...it all worked out for the best.  Bountiful/North Salt Lake, put on their Firework show tonight, and one of my FA's that I work for lives near where they were going off.  He invited us up to play in his backyard and watch the show.

It was a lot of fun.  And, guess what??  Bailee is NO LONGER SCARED OF FIREWORKS!!  She is a big girl now!  ha-ha...

It was a good time!

We are going to go swimming tomorrow before Eric goes to work.  Spend some quality, 4th of July family time together!

But...I just wanted to say...

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!!

 

new-found love

I am so totally loving Buckcherry right now!!  It is my favorite band for the moment...

 

Yeah, I just had to post that...

 

Here are the lyrics to the song on my profile right now...

Everything

Buried way beneath the sheets I think she's having a meltdown
Finding it hard to fall asleep she won't let anyone help her
The look on her face a waste of time she won't let go gonna roll the dice
Loosing her grace starts to cry I feel her pain when I look in her eyes
I want ta be I want everything, I want everything
Somewhere she is on the streets trying to make things better
Praying to God and breathing deep gotta break this long obsession
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
If I had everything would I still want to be alive or want to be high [2x]
Now and then she talks to me and sometimes writes me letters
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
Your eyes, never close your eyes open up your mind and you can have everything

Bailee Nicole is the love of my LIFE!

Can I just say...that I absolutely LOVE my daughter!  She is simply the most beautiful child in the world!  HUGE, blue eyes...compassionate smile...always adoring...

I just love her so much!

I am very sentimental, and sad right now.  Because my darling little bee is going to be 4 in less than a month.  OMG, it seriously breaks my heart!!  I don't want my baby to grow up!

But, she seriously is the greatest joy in my life.  Anyone who has met her knows that.  She is such a happy, ray of sunshine!

I just LOVE her more than anything!

I posted new (old) pictures on my page.  Of her when she was about 1 (and up)...it seriously just kills me that she is going to be 4!!!

Bailee Nicole...I love you so much!

Almost time for Kenny!

I'm so excited!

This Thursday is the Annual Kenny Chesney Concert!

Me n' my buds are going to the show!!

Whoopppeee!!

Last weekend...

I had such a good time...

It reminded me of last summer, where Bailee and I could go off and have the time our our life with just some other friends of ours.

Friday night, Jenna joined Bailee and I to dinner at California Pizza kitchen with her two boys, Scott and Conner.  Afterwards, we went and saw Shrek: The Thrid.  Saturday, we all went to the pool and the kids had such a great time.  We all hung out later, after we left the pool.

And then Sunday we decided to take the kids out again.  We bought them some goggles, and let them loose control with those goggles.  They had such a blast.  It was so much fun watching our kids experience water in a different way.  Just because of the goggles.

I had a good weekend spent with a good friend of mine and her two boys.  I hope to be able to continue this summer fun.

Fun-filled weekend AHEAD!!!

So, this weekend should be fun!

(all except for the fact that Eric works the ENTIRE time!)

So it is a Bailee/Mommy weekend!

Tonight we are going to go to dinner with my friend Jenna and her boys at California Pizza Kitchen and then to see Shrek The Third.

Tomorrow and Sunday will be spent at the pool with her and her boys as well.

It is going to be a HOT ONE this weekend!  I am so not excited about that!!!  But I am excited to have a fun-filled, eventful weekend with my Bailee-kins!!

Have a good weekend!!

X's & O's

Jamilyn

In just an hour...

My darling lil Bee will be dancing in her first, ever RECITAL!

I am so excited!  I just got done curling her hair and putting makeup on her...She looks so DARLING!

he-he

Bee-Bee

Bee has her Recital tomorrow for dance.  I can't believe it is already time for this!  She has been in dance since the begining of February, and now she will be in her first Recital!!

Keep posted for some pics and links to videos...she is my STAR!

cRApY daY

Yeah,

So...this day basically...pretty much...YEP...it did...SUCK!!!

 

I don't want to go into all of the whole details...but for the past few weeks a lot of things have not been the greatest...and this day...was ICING on the cake.

 

Crappy Day...Crappy Day...Heck...I'd say Crappy month...but it just started...hate to see what it has in store...it did start out not so hot...

Doin' well...

I don't post blogs like I used to.

Funny thing is...I am NOT as busy as I used to be either.  I am not studying like I was last year.

Maybe it is because now that I am NOT studying...I am not on the computer like I used to be.  That could be it.  Before I used to find anything I could to keep me from 'hitting the books'.

Well, I just wanted to post that I am doin' well.  My family and I.  We are all the same.  Still working every day, and going to daycare/preschool.  But finding lots of time to be together.  It has been nice not spending all my free-time (aka...time that Eric isn't working) studying.  When he isn't working we will go out and do something.  Like tomorrow, we are planning on going out to The Great Salt Lake and having a picnic or something like that.

Well, I wish you all a wonderful SUMMER!!  I can't believe it is already June 1st!!!  And how many blogs that I have NOT posted in the past 6 months compared to last  year!!  HAHAHA!

XO

Jamilyn Wray

 

Missouri Trip

So, we just returned from a fun vacation to Missouri.

We went out there because my best friend, Kara, was getting married.

We flew into St. Louis on 5/17 at about 1:30am...trying to get our rental car and find our hotel room, took FOREVER at that hour!!

On Friday (5/18), we went into downtown St. Louis and decided to go visit the Gateway Arch.  It was amazing!  We rode in this tiny little capsule-like thing to the top of the arch and were able to take some pretty cool pictures.

After our visit to downtown we got in the rental car for a 4 hour drive to Branson.

We had such a good time.  I didn't get to spend hardly any time with Kara, but I did have a good time with Bailee and Eric.  It was nice to get away and not have to worry about the everyday pressures of work and life.

Kara's wedding was on Monday, 5/21.  And we headed back home on Tuesday.  Back to the grime!!

Anyway, we don't seem to get to vacation much.  Because of Eric's work schedule, but it was so nice to get out as a family and spend some time together.

And as always, it is always GREAT to come back home!!

Horrible FLU!!

So, I am home sick with a nasty flu bug.

I hate having the flu.  I really hate it!

It came on Tuesday afternoon, and it is still here today.  I am all weak, sick, and BLAH.

:(

Ohio State...

So, I need Ohio State to win today...

A bunch of us at work are in a pot.  We each picked a team that we thought would make it to the end.  Once your team was out, you had to buy lunch for all the others still in the game.

I don't want to buy lunch, so I want Ohio to go all the way!

So far Kevin, Blaine and Pam have had to buy lunch.  (they thought UNC was going to make it...HA!)

Megann and I are rooting for Ohio State; Steve and Jeff are rooting for Georgetown; Bob, Debbie, and Joe are going for Florida; and Brandon is rooting for UCLA.

COME ON OHIO!  WIN SO I DON'T HAVE TO BUY LUNCH! (lol)

I got tagged...

The Method:

Once you have been tagged you can't be re-tagged. You have to write a blog with 10 weird / random / secret things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'you are tagged' on their profile and tell them to read your latest blog."

Here goes...

1. I am the oldest child in my family.  I am also the ONLY girl out of seven younger brothers.  It wasn't always that way.  My mom and dad only had my brother Nick (22) and I.  They divorced when I was 11 and my mom remarried.  My Mom and my step-dad, Tye had one more child, Alex (9).  My dad married my step-mom, who already had Jordan (20), Riley (18), and was pregnant with Tristan (11).  They went on to have two kids together, Kayden (9) and Micah (7).  So I have one natural brother, three step-brothers, and three half-brothers.

2. I LOVE to sleep!  I have always wondered just how many hours I could sleep in a row.  I tell Eric all the time that I want to have a weekend to just sleep the entire time!  If I could, I would sleep in everyday, all day long!  And it has nothing to do with depression...I just LOVE to sleep!!!

3. I am definately NOT a shop-a-holic like most girls.  I actually HATE to go shopping.  I do not find fun in it at all.  It is so boring!  And I don't need every new trendy thing out there.   I don't understand people that "live" to shop.  It is pathetic and BORING! lol  (sorry to my buds who love shopping)

4. I did not meet Eric while I was a lifeguard for Spanish Fork Waterpark.  (That is the story we always used)  We actually met online.  An old friend of mine thought it would be funny to create these profiles on a singles website, I actually had no idea she did it until I started receiving emails from random men.  The only guy I ever met online was Eric.  And I am not exactly sure why I even agreed to do that!  But we were a perfect match for eachother.  We make eachother laugh and from day ONE we have felt amazingly comfortable with eachother.  (on our first date...we went to a movie at the Provo Towne Center and while we were waiting I wanted to go shop for some new underware...and he was ok with it.  A little embarrassed but okay with it...we joke about that all the time)

5. I am not big on most types of fruit.  Infact, there are a select few that I will even eat.  I think I only like watermelon, apples, peaches, pears, and oranges.  I HATE berries!!  And I am not sure what it is about them that I don't like.  Because I like the taste of them.  I think it is the seeds. 

6. Everything in my closet has to be in order.  I am OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE about it!  All of my shirts are hung up facing a certain direction and they are in order from jackets, sweaters, long sleeves...etc...all the way to spaghetti string tanks. 

7. I have amazingly-scary intuition.  Just ask Eric.  He can't ever get away with anything.  I always find out.  And I always have hunches.  It is very hard to pull a fast one on me.  I can read people VERY well.  I am not an idiot, and I hate when people lie or purposely try and deceive others.  I am a Scorpio, so the intuition is pretty right on. 

8. I hate wearing shoes!  I love shoes, they are so cute!  But I HATE to wear them.  For some reason, my feet are clostrophobic...lol!  Not kidding, though.  I wear sandals and flip-flops in the middle of winter.  The only time I will actually wear shoes and socks (stalkings)...is in the winter to work.  And that is because I pretty much have too.  But I always take my shoes off under my desk.

9. My hair and nails grow so damn fast!  My hair, seriously, grows at least an inch every month.  I know, I know...so many women would kill to have their hair grow so fast.  And it is nice when I am wanting to grow it out...(like now)...but, because of it growing so fast, I am having to get my re-growth touched up around every 3 weeks!!  It is insane!

10. I do not enjoy being alone, and I HATE the dark!!  I don't like to do things alone either.  I am not near as bad as I used to be, but I am still pretty bad.  I like having company around.  Back to the dark, I HATE it!  It's okay to sleep in, but I can't sit there in a dark room all alone. 

My Kara Bear-a....

So, my best friend is knocked-up! LMAO!!

AND she is gettin' hitched in MAY!!

I am so happy for her!  She is going to be the bestest MOMMY in the entire world and I know it!

I love you Kara, sorry for bein' a spaz last night...

I AM EXCITED!

MUAH....JAMILYN

NEW resolution......

GRR..

If I like it or not....

I am starting this new RESOLUTION!

GRRRR....

G/D!

F.I.A.!!!!!

Expect a new and improved me in less than 2 months!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

BTW...depression!!  MAJOR!

I am finally DONE!!!

I finally passed my Series 66 today!  Which completes my studying for GOOD!  (unless I decide I want to pursue futher through my career...but NOT anytime soon!!)

I am so HAPPY!!

Now I get to get paid MUCHO more!  So EXCITED!!

SO EXCITED!

I am still on cloud #9!!

Go me, go me!

 

And just like that, I am back in UTAH

Ahh, traveling is so nice.  Visiting family members is the greatest!  And getting away from it all is WONDERFUL!  But nothing beats coming back home.

I just got home from a little trip to California.  I didn't really do too much, I just went out to visit my Step-dad and my brother Alex.  And we got to see my mom on Sunday, so that was good!

I flew out Friday afternoon, and on Friday night I went out for drinks and dancing with Tye (my step-dad).  On Saturday Alex had a birthday party at Chucky Cheese for his 9th birthday, so we spent about 3 1/2 hours there.  (they serve beer and wine at the Chucky Cheese's in Cali...very nice! lol)  Later that night we went out for Sushi and then watched movies.

Sunday we went to Malibu with my Mom.  It was a bit chilly, so we didn't go play on the beach like we wanted to.  But we dined for lunch at the Malibu Beach Cafe (right on the shore), and then drove around Malibu and Santa Monica.

Tye and Alex had work and school on Monday, so I studied until about 3, and then picked up Alex from school.  We barbequed steaks that night and watched the premeire of Dancing with the Stars!  (Go Ian and Joey!!)

Tuesday was much like Monday, I studied until Tye got off work, and then we took Cake down to the YMCA so Alex could share it with all of his friends for his Birthday.  (He turned 9 yesterday!  He is growing up TOOOOOOO fast!!)  Then we had dinner at TGI's and went shopping.  Alex and I had fun in the Hot Tub after dinner, and then it was to bed early after American Idol got over.

We had to get up at 4am this morning so that Tye could get me to the airport and be back in time for work, so that was pretty early for me...seeing I was sleeping in every day for the past few days!

I am now back at home...and I still have some studying left this afternoon before I pick up Bailee from DayCare.  But I thought I'd leave you guys with a note on my trip.  I know, day to day stuff...kinda boring...but I sure enjoyed spending time with Alex and Tye, and seeing my Mom.

I had better hit the books, I take my test on Friday.  GO ME!! lol

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

-Jamilyn

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH

BLAH!!!

Hi All...I am in Cali...and I am feeling...rather...

BLAH!

(if you haven't noticed)

I am having a good time playing with Alex though.

But I am missing Eric and Bailee!!  So much!!!

Anyway...

Have a good week all!

DANCING QUEEN!!!

So, Bailee has been in Dance for a month now. And, she absolutely LOVES it! She is doing so good for a lil 3 year old!

And her mama is proud!

She is going to be in a show on June 7th!

A great, fun, relaxing time!

So,

As some of my friends know, I hate taking baths.  I get claustrophobic and BORED when I bathe.

I definately prefer showers!

But today, today was a stressful day.  More stressful than most...either that, or all that stress was finally catching up to me.  Wearing me out, making me feel...just a little on edge.  A little worthless and pathetic!!

So, when I got home from work, I poured me a tall glass of Merlot, drew me a very hot bubble bath, lit some candles, put on some slow music....and hopped in the bath for a tubby.

AHHH...it was so darn relaxing!  I was able to spend a whole hour in there with Bailee only bothering me once.

I laid back, sipped on my glass of wine, listened to my slow music, and put a cold wash cloth over my eyes.

It was the best hour I have spent in a very long time.  And by far the most relaxing!

I am still a shower girl, but I am sure I will be taking a hot relaxing bath more often!

Gosh darn! Obviously NOT meant to happen...

Okay,

I am so totally FRUSTERATED!!!

I have been wanting to get a tattoo for quite some time now.

Tonight was my 3rd try at it.  And...I wasn't able to get one!  I mean, who the heck DENIES someone for a third time???

GRRRR!!!!

Maybe I am not supposed to get one.

Don't answer that!

Because I really want one.  I have for like a few years now.

Anyway...I have talked about getting one for years!!

The first time I HONESTLY tried to get one was when I was in Mesquite.  But there were no darn parlors in Mesquite to satisfy my urge.

Then about 2 weeks ago I was out with Brandi, and we went to one after the Huka, we got there at about 11:30, but since they closed at 12, they wouldn't give me one.

So, tonight, we decided to go and get me one after our lil dinner and drinks...PLUS...it was only about 8:30PM.  But...NO...the stupid place closed at 9, so they wouldn't give me one then either!!!  GRRR!!!

Maybe I am not supposed to get one.

Actually, it is probably because I am being tested.  They want to make sure I "really" want one.

Well DAMNIT!  I do really want one!

At least I think I do.

LOL

Na, I really do want one!  I do, I do, I do!!!

And, soon I will be posting pics of my new tat that I was FINALLY able to get!!!

Just you wait and see!!

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA

Celebration

So, today was the day of CELBRATION...

Eric and I celebrated Valentine's today.  We started by going to a wedding.

What a better way to celebrate a day of love, than by going somewhere where LOVE really begins???

My grandpa got married today.  It was such a sweet little ceremony.  In his living room.  How romantic.  My new 'step' grandma is such a nice lady.

Anyway...

Today, Eric and I planned on spending our Valentines date together.  We went to dinner at a nice Steak House, and then we joined up with some of my friends at Port a Call and watched Royal Bliss perform.

I had never heard of Royal Bliss, but....We had so much fun.  And they were WONDERFUL!!!

I love my HUBBY so much!!!!!

He is definately my....

ONE AND ONLY!!!!!

The one to always be there!  And the ONLY one to know what I "want"..LOL

Happy V day to my baby!!

I love you Eric John Wray!

You are my LOVER from now to ALWAYS!

We had so much fun tonight.  Just like we always do when we go out together.

Happy V day babe.  You made me so happy.

I am the luckiest woman on Earth to be your wifey, and you woman.

This Blogger-o is for YOU!

I LOVE ERIC!

I LOVE YOU!!

HAPPY LATE VALENTINES DAY!!!!

Oh, 1 more thing for Eric...

Thank you so much for the beautiful flowers that you sent to me at work today!  You made my horrible, crappy, crummy day THAT much better!

 

I LOVE YOU WITH MY WHOLE HEART!!

St. Valentine's Day

Ah, the day of Love, the day of Romance, the day of...um...all that's sweet and tender!!

lol

it's just funny how people think that today is the only day to go above and beyond on the romance factor.  Shouldn't you do it any time you want to show that special someone how much they mean to you?

Anyway, I just wanted to tell Eric how much I love and appreciate him.  Honey, you are a wonderful, amazing man.  And I truly love everything about you!!!  Thanks for all that you have done for me, and all that you continue to do for me.  You are my everything.  My bestfriend, my husband, the father to our daughter, and my lover!  I love you!!!

And to everyone else out there,

Happy St. Valentines Day!

I hope you all get to spend it some special way, even if you are celebrating it SINGLE!  (I have done that many times before, sometimes the best way to celebrate it)

MUAH

Nevada weekend!!!

This past weekend was A WHOLE LOTTA FUN!!

On Friday Bailee and I drove south towards the border.  (of Utah...that is...lol...)

We stopped in St. George Friday afternoon to visit my good friend Lizzy.  Bailee had some fun playing with her pooches.

After visiting her, we joined the rest of our family in Mesquite, NV. 

I got to see my MAMA, TYE, & ALEX!!  (I hadn't seen them since September)  We checked into our room at the Oasis, and then went to dinner at the Casablanca. 

After dinner, Tye and I went to the Casino while mommy watched Bailee and Alex while they all slept.

I had a lot of fun with Tye.  We met up with my Uncle Shane, hardly an uncle...more like a brother...he is only 14 months and 2 days older than me..., anyway, we played the 5 cent poker machines for a few hours, and had a bunch of drinks, (including 2 tequila shots...).

The next morn we got up and went into Vegas.  My mom bought me a new iPod Nano, the super cute Hot Pink one!!  And then we hung out at the Wynn and the mall across the street from it.  When we met up with the rest of our family, we decided to have dinner at a restraunt near Fremont Street.  After dinner, we wandered, of course...Fremont Street.  And bought one of those big huge margaritas to share.  lol  And then drove back to our hotel in Mesquite.

When we got back my buddy Lizzy joined me in Mesquite and we went dancing at the club.  It was sooooo much fun!  We had fun drinking and dancing!!  And taking a billion pictures!  She just needs to send me ALL of them! lol

Bailee ended up catching the 'Croupe' saturday night, which was no fun for either her, nor me! lol

Sunday we all went into St. George to visit my grandma's sister and her husband.  (My Aunt Luci and Uncle Ron)  We stayed there for a few hours, and then Bailee and I went to Eric's parents house to visit with them, and have dinner.

Later that night Tye and I went out again.  This time for only about 2 hours.  We were both tired, and seeing we had that long drive the next day, we thought it would be smart to not be out too late.

All in all...I had such a good time!  I wish that my hubby would have been able to join me on my trip.  But I still had fun!

One more thing...actually kind of sad! And very SCARY!!

So, yesterday...I get home from work, all excited because we were going out to dinner at Flemming's Prime Steak and Wine Bar for dinner with my bosses.  (Bob, Steve, & Kevin), and one of our wholesellers...

Anyway...I get home, decide to go out and check the mail...and what do I find in the mailbox?  A letter from my doctor.  It was actually some results from my Pap Shmear* (however it's spelled) from back at the begining of October...

Not such great news...very, very, very, very, very scary news actually.

For those who don't know, November '05 my Grandma passed away at the age of 64 from a type of Cervical Cancer.  A month later, her daughter, my aunt, was diagnosed with another type of Cervical Cancer, at age 42.

Anyway, because of this...it freaked me out even more...

I have some 'NOT NORMAL' cells in my cervix.  (as my dr. called it)

The diagnosis was:

"Epithelial Cell Abnormality.  Atypical squamous cells of undeterminded significance."

Whatever that fully means...

Anyway...scared the living SH** out of me!  First thing I did was call my mom, totally upset.  She calmed me down a little.  Told me to call and talk to the doc to see what all of this means.  Then I went inside and told Eric.  He was pretty concerned.  Trying to ease me, because I was about to start hyperventilating.  Anyway, we went to dinner...which was wonderful....yum-yum...and then my doctor got ahold of me at about 10:30pm to discuss my problem.

He isn't too worried.  Because I tested NEGATIVE for HPV.  Now, if I had tested POSTIVE for HPV, then I would be in more of a danger zone.  Because then, most likely, I would have pre-cancerous cells...not so wonderful.

Basically...I am still worried.  I mean, who wouldn't be?

I have to go back in the next 4-12 weeks for another Pap...(grrr, I already have to do that ONCE a year...why TWICE?)...and then *hopefully* the cells will show normal.  If not...well then, that is a different story.  Then they will have to do a sort of biopsy and run more tests to see if I do have another form of cervical cancer.

yeah, pretty damn scary if you ask me!

Not looking to forward to this!

But I am trying to be Optimistic that nothing is wrong.  That it was just a FALSE-POSITIVE on the atypical squamous cells!

ha-ha...

Yeah...I am still totally scared out of my freaking MIND!

 

Nevada...I am on my way!!

Tomorrow morning, Bailee and I are packing up and heading to Mesquite, NV!!  Wahoo!!

It is the annual Mesquite trip with my fam-damly!

Which means we will get to see my mama, papa-tye and ALEX!!

I am so excited!  I haven't seen them in about 4 months!  And Bailee hasn't seen them in even longer than that!  So this will be a good trip!

I took Friday and Monday off of work for a little vaca away!

Eric, unfortunately, has to work.  So he will not be joining us on our tripperoo...he will be missed...and he will be missing out on all the F-U-N!!!  ha-ha-ha

I also get to 'hopefully' hang out with my buddy Lizzy.  She lives in St. George, and I miss her tons and tons and oodles more!  They are supposed to go dancing in Vegas this weekend for her birthday next week, and I am trying to coax her hubby into dancing in Mesquite instead...

Well, talk at'cha all when I return from my much needed time AWAY!!

My fun time with Kara

So, my bestest bud in the entire world was in Utah....she just left today... =( ...

BUT- not without having some fun with me!!

Although, this time she was here, was...well...'low-key'...compared to last year!  LOL HA-HA

We still had a great time!

I saw her after she got off the plane last Thursday, and then on Saturday me, Kara, John and Eric went to Iggy's for some dinner, and then off to the bowling alley.  Where we spent about 4 hours drinking and bowling.  We had such a great time!  That is where those pictures come from on my page of Kara, John, Eric and I.

And then on Tuesday night we went to Iggy's again...this time for appetizers and $2 draft night!

Ahh...I already miss her bunches!!

Blah, oh and...TIRED...

But I can not seem to make myself just LIE DOWN.  Or even RELAX.

 

BLAH

 

I am extremely annoyed.  Almost depressed.

 

I mean, ultimately, I am doing just fine.  Nothing bad is going on right now.  I am just feeling...

totally and utterly...

...DEPRESSED...

Don't get me wrong.  Life is going in every way that I want it to right now.  Well, almost every way.  Of course there could be aspects that could be better.  But, maybe it is just that time of the year.  That time where people just get gloomy.  Hell, I bet it is even the weather.....I mean.....look at all this fucking SMOG all around.  You can't even see the damn MOUNTAINS!  I drive into work everyday and I can't even see Downtown, even when I am about 5 miles away from it.

Maybe that is where all this blah, depression, is coming from.

Maybe it is the fact that this week Eric has been working 2 jobs.  So I haven't really even seen him since Tuesday night.  And the only time we have talked in the past 3 days we have both been busy, tired, and annoyed.  So we haven't been in the mood for 'chit-chatting'.

Or, hell, maybe it is the fact that....AGAIN...another month is here, and I am STILL NOT PREGNANT!!!!  What the fuck!!  Honestly!  (sorry for the language...but I am trying to figure this stupid emotion I am going through out...)  I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this!!!!

It is too the point where Bailee begs for a 'brudder or sisser'.  And me not being able to provide that for her, makes me ache.  And again, my doctor wants me to be put on fertility, but...I just can't do it.  I want to have a child on my own!  I mean, I have already done it before!!!  Why can't it happen again this time?????!!!!!

GRRRRR......

In all aspects, everything in my life is going just fine. 

 

I am just going through some stupid sort of depression.  I mean, on the outside, I am all wonderful and blissful, and happy.  To everyone.  Including Eric.

But on the inside, I am a ticking time bomb.  Who knows how long it'll last.  Hopefully not too long.  Because where I am at at this moment...it is not a good place....I have resorted to...well...

...we won't go there....

I just need to be happy.

I really do.

 

And ultimately I am.  I am just suffering through a dark time right now.

 

But....

 

There is light at the end of this dark tunnel...I already see it...the question is...

 

...how long until I am to the end of it?

Long week...

Although this week was rather...'short'...because I had Monday off.  It seemed to have lasted FOREVER!!!

Things have picked up at work.  So I have been super busy all week.

Eric's new job started Monday, so I have had to get up an hour earlier all week.  (which is probably why it has seemed so much longer)

But Bailee has been wonderful all week.  And it has been nice getting to dress her up and do her hair all week.  Usually daddy just puts her in whatever is clean, and then runs a brush quickly through her hair.  But this week, she was sportin' new clothes that we bought last weekend, and had her hair done so pretty every day!!

Anyway, it has been a long week.  And I am indeed ready for the weekend.  Hopefully it will be relaxing.  Eric has to work both tomorrow and Sunday.  So no sleeping in!  =(

But, on a great note...

My bestest bud Kara is in town from Missouri.  I got to see her last night.  And I got to meet her man.  Tomorrow night we are all going to go to dinner and go BOWLING!  Yippee!!  I love having my Kara in town!  I have missed her tremendously!

Have a good weekend everybody!

Kara Lyn Cruz Ashton Wray

So, my bestest friend in the ENTIRE world is coming into town in one short week!

I am so damn excited!!!

WAHOOOOOO!!!

Kara and Jami roll again!

And with her new man John...who I am excited to FINALLY meet...heard about him for a billion years now...and I am finally going to get to meet the bitch...hahaahaha.

Anywho...

Kara...you better be planning to spend time with me.  Not just a day.  Or even two.  Whose your best friend?  Huh?  Who?? 

(me...right?...HAHAHA...Yeah...that's what I thought!)

I miss you girl!  Excited to see you next week!  It has been an entire YEAR!